Home Gardening.

I woke up around 5:45 today in a panic. This doesn't really happen often anymore, only when I'm experiencing severe amounts of anxiety for an extended period of time. The closest thing I can describe it to is sensing intense fear and apprehension even though nothing is threatening me at that moment. I've thought about how odd of a reaction it is to stress, as I am usually composed in stressful situations (maybe I'll feel a few butterflies but never anything I can't handle), but it isn't until I'm alone, either before I go to bed or when I wake up the next morning that the terror hits me full force. Perhaps it was a way of dealing with my parents growing up, and perhaps the wave of stress in the morning comes from the shock of jolting awake to someone screaming at someone on many unexpected mornings. I don't think its that severe, because I always just get up (no matter what hour it is), breathe and calm myself, and come through just fine...I'm still here aren't I? The Lord has been good to me.

Anyways, I took some pictures yesterday because I was home alone and needed a break from myself. Since my dad is still in Taiwan, no ones been tidying his garden (he'll be so excited to clean it up once he gets home, the messier the better) and I decided to take pictures of the jungle that used to be a neat little garden in  the yard. I'm still not sure if I'm satisfied with these. (Probably not.) The focus is off in one of the pictures and I took a few nice pictures of cucumbers, but it was almost impossible to spot them clearly because they blend right into the background. After looking through many flickr images from photographers, this is my most recent rule of thumb: BACK. UP. A rule which I didn't do so great with this photosession.

My dad built his garden frame out of bamboo. You easily spot the unripened tomatoes and vines, but can u spot the cucumber at first glance?

I wanted to snap some mundane things around the yard...and whats more mundane than patches of grass :P Also, I forgot my recent rule of thumb in these two shots and didn't back up farther from the subjects. I think they would have turned out much more nicely if I had done so.

I'm not a tomato fan but I'm excited to watch them ripen to a nice red color :) It'll be a nice contrast from allllllllll the green and yellow. It was all gray skies during my photo session yesterday, hopefully today will be different.